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[Dec. 12th, 2009|03:52 pm] |
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Shanghai nothing but fog. And throngs of people milling about. And security checks at MTR stations enough to give US airports a run for their money. And loads of Zara and H&M (<33). But still no sun. Where the sun. Watched 2012. Veli scared. I want sun. Sunny sunny sun. Wooooooooooot. Facebook. Where u. Come back. Typing maniac. Withdrawal symptoms. Owwwwww. |
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[Dec. 12th, 2009|03:46 pm] |
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Heh I'm so bored.
K yesternight went for Tjong's 18th bday at Hyatt, the rest have not put up pictures on fb yet, so await for the photos. Errr lazy to narrate, so just photos when I receive them.
Tday woke up early to go town with family, & then stupid Chew kept suaning me & Mummy forbade me to go out next week. & then had dimsum at Crystal Jade yum yum yum. & then bought new white & pink new golf shoes heh, motivation to make me play golf. & then went to Tiffany & Co to get my xmas present from Big Daddy (^-^) But saw nothing that caught my eye, so going to use my xmas money to buy something else heh. & then Chew went around getting his polo tees, & then went to Isetan to show Mummy what kind of handbag I want to get with my xmas money, & then Mummy's heart went soft and says I can go out next week <:o) & then had coffee & cake at tcc. & then no photos bec I forgot my camera. & then I forgot what happened. & then back home now. |
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[Dec. 12th, 2009|04:14 am] |
Sry for spamming your friends page :( It is 4.09am now. Ytd i saw 11.11 3.33 4.44. I used to see recurring numbers a lot & i thought i was going to die, but that was quite a while ago, & IM STILL ALIVE (Y)
New Moon is not worth the watch. Just catch it online if you really must, trust me. I think my 5 seconds nap would have resulted in me sleeping throughout if Elissa didnt start talking to me. TEAM JACOB + TEAM EDWARD. ANY TEAM BUT TEAM BELLA. HATE YOU BELLA. ALL YOU DO IS BREATHE DEEPLY & CURL INTO A FOETAL POSITION. Thx Wendy for today, rlly rlly hope we didnt get you into trouble.
Ok need to be in town at 1 tmr & Crystal already said specifically: do Not be late. I think i might.. i usually wake up at about 12 or sometimes 2. Ok i better sleep now. |
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[Dec. 12th, 2009|03:54 am] |
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[Dec. 12th, 2009|03:25 am] |
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“I think people who are attracted to the fashion industry are people who are really insecure and looking for a certain identity. I think that’s initially how people are attracted to it. And I’m sure it’s true about other industries as well, but in particular with that industry.” —Tom Ford in Interview. |
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[Dec. 12th, 2009|02:43 am] |
Watch the latest episode or 90210 nowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww!!!!!!
I rlly hope plans dont get cancelledddd :(
I always thought it was too good to be true but nooooo plz dont get cancelled :( |
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[Dec. 12th, 2009|12:59 am] |
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It's been a life-changing holiday so far. Made 2 major decisions that'll change everything. But, well.. This is life! Really dont know what it's gonna be like for me nx year. I'll just trust in God cuz I know he has a masterplan :) |
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[Dec. 11th, 2009|09:51 pm] |
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WHY
I did well in my exams but my dad still keeps nagging.
am i that bad ass?
Im a good girl.I know i am.
Gotta change that attitude sa. :) |
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[Dec. 11th, 2009|02:43 pm] |
My dad's not home. ly and sa are still sleeping.
i wrote an email to the head lecturer and received a reply this morning hoping for a miracle to happen but nah. Nothing's changed. I still have to inform my parents of my horrible results P P H3 N.
N = fail 0-49
I have to keep reminding myself not to blame anyone but myself for getting these grades.
I called the faculty this morning to ask about Summer.
Great news is i can still apply for summer . Bad news is summer semester starts on the 15th of jan.
Which means plans to travel overseas with friends ,have fun in singapore till the 25th of feb and to stay for CNY will not happen.
Ive done up my little proposal to show my Dad. The subject choices for summer and tentative flight dates etc.
As of now, i'll be sitting and reflecting whilst waiting for Dad to come home . breathe breathe breathe First, breaking the bad news about my breathe grades after which .breathe... the proposed idea .
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Updates:
Confirmed plan
12th jan leave for melb
15th jan summer semester starts
i have 4 weeks left in sg. |
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[Dec. 11th, 2009|09:22 am] |
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Out with Terrr yesterday was fun fun fun. Met Tess too, but that was a total joke 0.0 rang her for 30minutes while we were both at fep, but bec dont know why she didnt receive any of our calls, ended up walking around fep looking for her. Then in the end I msged her & she called me back, & she had to leave earlier :(
Anyways, went around to get everything with Terrrr & we sat at Starbucks for an hour! &&& someone left a Zara shopping bag worth $76 below the table, hahahahahaha, I got a shock when Terri slowly took it out & placed it on the table! So we kept looking out for a girl who looks frantic and runs to our table, she came in the end! & Terri was like my gps the whole time, directing the way bec I end up lost/gabla most of the time heh.
& RESULTS ARE OUT! Neheheheh, managing was surprising, finance was teeny weeny disappointing, animals & macro was expected haha. |
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[Dec. 11th, 2009|03:52 am] |
The Worst Grades Ever
failed a subject :'( |
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[Dec. 11th, 2009|03:10 am] |
I need some damn direction in life. The happy reality series/celebrity type of life which consists mostly of socializing is a good life. I want that minus the drama. Rich & carefree, able to do anything i want. But my ideal life is incredibly superficial & shallow. Am i that shallow? I lust after expensive things i well cannot afford on my own(HELLO I HAVENT EVEN GOTTEN MY A LEVEL CERT.. FRICTIONAL UNEMPLOYMENT OCCURING HERE). Why do some people get all the money in the world? Why are some people just so damn rich. Money money money.
WHERE IS THE PATH THAT I WANT? WHERE? WHAT IS THE PATH? Someone help me. I've gone through 18 years just blindly following the damn system. What if at this final stage i fail. Where do i go? What if i manage to overcome this final stage, it'll def be uni, but what uni, which uni, what course? Questions questions questions. I do not want to be sitting behind a desk calculating numbers, tabulating information, keying information into a machine. That, i do not want. I know what i do not want. BUT CAN I MAKE SOMETHING OUT OF MYSELF SO THAT I'LL END UP DOING SOMETHING I LIKE? Or will i end up with a 9-5 job because i HAVE to due to practical reasons. How? How? How? Too much to think.
But, i will need a lot of money to get into a uni i want because it is expensive & its not even in Spore its far far away SEE BEING RICH WLD BE EXTREMELY HELPFUL HERE THANK YOU V MUCH.
Ytd my dad & i were talking & he said he didnt mind spending money on the stuff i had/have to do cuz its an Investment. What if im a fucking letdown. Down the drain all the hardearned money goes. Byebye never to see again. Just like my damn Chinese grade. I thought i was alright BUT I GUESSED WRONG. UGH IM SUCH A LETDOWN. COMPLACENCY IS NO.1 KILLER, NOT AIDS. Plz A Level gods shower a lot a lot of blessing on me :( Life & death life & death........ March 2011 :((((((
Way to go me! Coming to my senses only after the exams.
Need more alone time. Need to think. Need to read more widely. Need to inject information in that hugeass empty space called a brain. Need to find direction. Need to be nicer. Need to stop judging. Need to stop forming judgements so quickly & not judge. Need to stop judging, really. Need to care more for others. Need to stop being selfcentred. Need... to sleep it is 3.33am now. Oh yes one more key thing, need to stop being lazy. Im the laziest cow i know. |
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[Dec. 11th, 2009|02:17 am] |
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This is it. My results are out and I've successfully passed every subject and I'm graduating in 2009. You have no idea how thrilled I am. It's really a miracle that I passed everything and I was shaking whilst checking my results because I was really so afraid I'd fail something and have to do a supplementary paper or worse still, stay back an entire semester!
It was really nerve-wrecking. Every single moment I was awake, every moment that I thought of my results, I'd say a quick prayer. I was really terrified. These are the biggest exams OF MY LIFE and if I failed any, Rui would totally kill me :(
Whilst packing up to leave, I couldn't even pack properly because I didn't know if I should throw away my notes and textbooks..etc. I didn't know if I was gonna have to retake any papers. I didn't know if I was gonna have to fly back here. It was a terrible wait. But now it's over and I'm so relieved :)
Probably coming back to Melb in March 2010 to actually graduate and get my certificate but whatever, I'M A GRADUATE.
I've waited YEARS for this. I remember how I used to dream of the day I'd graduate and never have to study ever again. It's been twenty years of torture and it's finally over. Studying is such a chore. Well, some people excel in it and some people simply can't. Obviously, you know which category I belong to. I've dreaded every bit of studying and now it's over.
It feels funny, somewhat.. Never having to study again - that's a queer thought. I'm so glad it's all over. Driving, exams, everything :) Now time to find a job.
Once again, I thank God for my results. |
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[Dec. 10th, 2009|09:01 pm] |
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i kinda miss school :( |
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[Dec. 10th, 2009|05:21 pm] |
4 day in an office and i feel so suffocated.. am currently yearning for a couch to laze on. My eyes really hurt and i just feel extremely spaced out. Went town ytd night & played L4D2 HAHAH I SUCKED AT IT, but im getting better! Canceled plans today cuz im lazy & i kindda need to pack but but but New Moon tmr!! Ps, Hi Wendy i think i'll probably go Cine tmr, GIVE US (CY & I) FREE YOGURT!!!!!!!!
Sigh America plans are not confirmed yet. So many possibilities,ytd i got a shock when they said i should leave asap & the earliest flight out is on.. MONDAY?! But we decided it was too rush & settled for 20th. BUT HELLO WHAT ABOUT MY CHRISTMAS & NY & CNY & FRIENDS? :'( Was quite sad but then plans changed again today zomg too much changes need to hurry settle it. Man, i still need to meetup & go out with so many people.
Sigh i had 2 hours of sleep last night ugh i keep falling asleep everywhere. Last night was yet another night of secret rebellion. The last hour was kindda worth it, though drama ensued as usual. Plus Cai had a friggin seizure & collapsed on the damn floor. We were all like WTF. Srsly, too scary to even think of it again, she was REALLY as pale as a sheet, we were all scared like hell.
I finally succumbed & got Twitter btw. Actually not really because of all the peer pressure but more out of boredom. I followed tons of celebs.. but then again its not like they'll tweet every single second so i dont think i'll get addicted to it? I highly doubt i'll be using it often though. I mean who is interested in my life? Why would people want to know what im doing 24/7??? So i guess its just another social networking site to kill time & waste my precious youth away. I am 18 already.. 1 more year till 9teen & then i'll be twenty. No more TEEN in the number.. SO DAMN OLD. I rmb i was excited as hell about turning thirteen but then when it actually happened, i felt nothing. Birthdays arent much i guess, its just a normal day. I guess its more the people around you/matter to you that makes it special. Hate that my birthday is in November though. The important years (16 & 18) was when i was having my O Level & A Level examinations respectively.. how gross is that.
Its quite apparent that im bored right.. i really have no clue as to how to use Excel, need the help of Mr Kwee the Whizzzz but he's probably at home reading up on econs or like thinking of new jokes to tell his next batch of students. Definitely will miss the stupid jokes. Oh & I just realised because i've been using Mac, i've been too lazy to load the new words doc in so I DONT KNOW HOW TO USE THAT EITHER. Damn, im so tech unfriendly.
Ok one random fact, i like eating mint stuff! My mum bought this damn nice mint choc, & theres this damn nice mint biscuit i really like. Mmmmmm i want to play arcade & shit i havent caught Avatar & Ninja Assassin!! Btw pay with Nets when you buy tix cuz ITS ONLY 6BUXXXX!!!! Save $$$$$ i learnt it from the cheapskate queen ^ ^ |
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[Dec. 10th, 2009|02:45 pm] |
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Hiiiiiiii my throat is in such a bad condition. Sometimes when I talk no voice comes out :( &.... Yeah.... my voice is even lower than it already is.... SIGH!! Manly~ :'( I think I've been having too many late nights. Poor body is breaking downnnn. I dont wanna get a fever :(
Anw I'm not going for zoukout anymore! Found out that our tickets havent actually been bought so I no longer have to worry about selling mine!!! :) $50 more in my piggybank whoo!
Results came out last night, or rather this morning at 6am. I'm satisfied! Not complaining! Totally got what I expected! Dont know if that's a good or bad thing cos my grades arent exactly good HAHA! Oh well, it's just my first uni exam. The nx will be better!!!!!!!!!! :)
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[Dec. 10th, 2009|12:59 pm] |
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Results ! I guess im pretty happy with them. Have been lazy blogging and posting pics up kekeke.
These few days have been rather interesting for me. Mixed feelings, questions in my head and lotsa reflection. :)Turned out to be pretty good. I dunno why but my heart is starting to soften and i can sense God slowly working through me. So amazing. Forget about the hurt, cold replies that im going though and just smile. Of cos not with sacarsism but sincerity. I know when i seek him,he'll def help cos he's all for love. :)
Ive been thinking about who i really am.
strange isnt it....:)
But i guess, there's always a point when you start to realise that life isnt just about hurt, pain, jealousy, anger, pride and hatred. Life should be full of smiles, laughter and joy. :) Funny how i thought that otherwise a week ago. I get this funny feeling in my heart and i wonder and still wonder what it is. I know its god nudging my heart. He keeps talking to me. Its all..... random. :)
I was talking to my dearest twin just ytd and....
my heart was just so soft i have no idea why. I started breaking down into tears and i didnt understand why i cried. I just didnt. I haven cried in a loooong time.
I know a seed have been sown.
I just gotta wait and see Gods work in me.
:) God, i know you're here. |
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[Dec. 10th, 2009|12:39 am] |
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hello i contemplated to write about why darius and i broke up but no. i won't and there's no need to! anyway i've been pretty busy :( and oh i think livejournal's such a chore. i blog like what? once in a month? hahahahahaha catch me at http://yourdaddysgirl.tumblr.com/ i'm pretty new. but my friend made me create. so i'm just playing around with it. if not i'm always on facebook + twitter! alright i love my girlies. :) they make me happy! gnight world |
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[Dec. 9th, 2009|02:38 am] |
( CLICK IF YOU WANT TO SEE BORING PIX )Ok so basically i paid about 80dollars to go to an expensive ballroom to take pictures. Its a bloody money sucking event. The whole damn week i kept going to town to look for shit, sighhhhh probably wont even wear anything i bought for prom again. Still, its prom, (almost)everyone goes for it right. Plus have to look out for qtssss. Mmmmm but there were none hahahaha postprom was dRaMamAmamAmAxz & i think i spent half an hour perspiring inside before surrendering & stoning/eating sweets/panicking outside. Wow just like that JC is O-V-E-R!!! WHOOP WHOOOP DO YOU KNOW I DONT MISS SCHOOL AT ALL?! But i was definitely sad on our graduating day, although i didnt expect myself to be. Cj turned out to be a lot more than i expected it to be & i made a gazillion awesome people, definitely one of the good choices i made in my life. As for the studying part.. probably neglected it waay too much & i definitely regret it. I left everything to the last minute, i hope i dont do too badly. A PLACE IN A LOCAL UNI & I WLD BE CONTENTED PLZ GOD SHOWER ALL YOUR BLESSINGS ON ME. EH SHIT I HAVENT CAUGHT NEW MOON HURRY SOMEONE WATCH WITH ME!!! Looking forward to dinner tmrrrr :> :> :> |
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