and so it's just;

Fri, 04 Dec 2009 07:16:40 GMT

its been awhile since i've last updated!
been back in spore for abt 2 weeks plus and i can gladly say tt i've been enjoying myself v much! (:
spending time w my family+canaan+gang8+church frens and occasional meet ups with my frens been the best time of my life!

i havent got the wire to upload the pics from my camera but will upload it when i have the time!
i dont want this holiday to end!
love the idea of having nth to do at all! teeehee!

ytd, celebrated our 33rd monthversary at Mahattan Fish Market!
thanks to estee for the $5 voucher!
HAHAHA as xiu n estee described it as our 'monthversary present' LOL TTM!
i miss tt boy so much alr! he's stuck in camp tday :(
cant wait to see him tmr!

going for luke's bday gathering later!
havent met up w my aussie frens yet!
miss them so!

mom,sis n i went to serangoon gardens for lunch and while i ws driving, mom told me to rmb to put parking coupons. BUT as usual, i cant multi-task when i drive, so i conveniently forgot to put it and in the midst of our lunch, my mom shouted, 'have u put the parking coupons yet!!!!!' and i said, 'oops NO' and literally RAN all he way back to the car to only find a slip of white ticket in front of my windscreen :( how saddening. we had only been there for like what? 10-15mins!? grrrr there goes 30bucks! i cld have bought sth with 30bucks! DAMM!

ahhhh i miss canaan!!!

k gonna play w my sister now!
BYEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!

OHOHOH, im going to HK with my mom n sis in jan!! YAY YAY YAY!!!! :D

Sun, 15 Nov 2009 04:50:50 GMT

i keep doing subject hopping that ultimately,
i fail to accomplish anything.
tell me what i shld do?

God, u really feel so far away when i need you in desperate times like this..

Sat, 14 Nov 2009 05:24:36 GMT

first, it started off with my neck.
the itch was soooo bad that it lasted for i think a week plus.
this happened few weeks ago.
jus as i recovered from the intensive itching+scratching(really cldnt help it),
i HAD to develop heat rashes on both of my arms.
its still itching and after applying calamine lotion, it doesnt really seem to help bcos its still irritatingly itchy!!!
its pretty gross and im looking at my arms now, shaking my head, wondering when this will ever recover.

to make things worse, after drying my hands 2 nights ago, i 'bang' my nails agst the wall and it SPILT.
NICE. and it HAD to spilt on my weakest nail!!! so... i cldnt resist (itchy hands ah, sorry), and i keep trying to peel bcos the feeling of it really irritates me! so i kept on peeling and now, tata, DEFORMED nail.

TELL ME HOW..
I WANT MY NAILS BACK.
i tihnk it'd take >month to heal :( :( :( :(

serve you right lana.

Fri, 13 Nov 2009 09:31:07 GMT

why do i keep breaking down?

Thu, 12 Nov 2009 05:13:28 GMT

my cramps are THAT bad that im gonna take a break from studying today.
i tried reading 4 qns for QM2 but its impossible to stay focus without getting irritated at myself.
its alr 4.11pm and i've accomplished what, reading 4 qns?
what a day!
but thank God tt it didnt come on the days of my papers!
mayb its a sign from God that its time for a break, to spend some time w him!
a blessing in disguise!
anw, im so excited for home tt i keep thinking abt it!

Tue, 10 Nov 2009 12:03:10 GMT

WOOOHOO!!
FINALLY, macro's down. 2 more papers to go and i'll be back homeee!!!
YAY! i cant wait!!

today's combined urbs was AWESOME!! scott's an interesting speaker!
today's message was really applicable to me (:
im glad i went (:

im really shagged to the max. i need to get my rest tonight.
i shall call canaan and sleep aft talking to him.
wouldnt miss it for the world (:

no matter wht im going through, i will press on (:

Thu, 05 Nov 2009 05:56:00 GMT

argh my butt hurts from all the constant hours of sitting down, trying to force myself to studyy!!
super restless.
i need exams to be over NOW NOW NOW NOW NOW

FAITH

Sun, 25 Oct 2009 12:45:43 GMT

i've been thinking, esp after today's message,
i think God's testing me today and for the past few days.
i've been through so many 'storms' recently tt i've been feeling so vulnerable, so rejected, so lost, so muddleheaded tt i almost lost who i am. i've been trying to change for the better, to improve all my flaws and emerge as a much better person with the grace of God.
i can feel God's presence moving within me. i can feel tt. He's been healing me slowly day by day, moulding me into a stronger person.

after what happened jus now, it dawned upon me tt its actually the devil's work, trying to steer me off-course in my walk with God. He instilled anger and frustration and disobedience within me. i was too caught up with my negative emotions tt i failed to see God's purpose for me. i know this quarrel was there for a purpose. it ws there to test my faith, to test me. now tt i've realised tt, i've made amendments. i've patched things up and i've accomodated ___. i've been very understanding and it actually felt really good. when u're rational, being in peace even though things might not turn out the way u want it to be, conversations and HTHT(heart-to-heart-talk) do open up; communication gets better and u realised that things arent as bad as it seem. there's a reason for everything and i questioned myeslf, why do i always get caught up in the moment and regret things later on?

im determined to change, i know for sure tt God's still in the process of renewing me and im gonna work towards it. when u see past all the anger, u actually do find a hint of vulnerability in the other party and in yourself as well. its this vulnerability tt make u want to empatise with, to see past ur anger/emotions and 'heal' the pain and anguish.

im comforted to know that through it all, __ has my interest at heart and im sincerely sorry for my lack of maturity and disgusting attitude towards handling the situation fairly in the best possible way.

im glad tt this 'storm' has made me more aware of myself n my flaws and it has taught me to be stronger, and im confident tt through communicating with you and pouring out our troubles with each other, we've forged a strong r/s than b4 and know tt i love you very much ___ (:

i believe that God brought me through this storm and in the process, empowering me to face much greater adversities (:

thank you baby and na for being there for me (:
thank you yingying for ur inspirational post dedicated to me which came jus in time to help me thru this (:

<3

anyway, this is the post yingying my beloved cousin dedicated to me (:

Romans 10:10

For it is with your heart that you believe and are justified, and it is with your mouth that you profess your faith and are saved.

anyway cous, just wanted to share this with you.

When you are feeling lonely, don't feel despaired.
Don't roam around when faced with crossroads in your life.
When you're feeling down and out, wipe away your tears.
When you feel disappointed, dont give up. Please dont give up.
Shout out the word Hallelujah!
Rejoice, be brave and press on. Trust in God's blueprints for your life.
Open up your eyes because God's opening a way for you.
Open your heart and recieve, for God's pouring his blessings down on you.

God is simply amazing (:

take me deeper than i've been before,
take me further, God i long for more,
take me higher than i've been before,
Jesus i want more, Jesus i need more

happy day!

Mon, 03 Aug 2009 01:26:32 GMT

happy28monthsbaby!! (:
i thank God for YOU.
i hope u'll receive my letter soon!
xoxo!

Mon, 13 Jul 2009 16:25:12 GMT

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W31dLZbwQWw

my SYF 2007 video!!
i really love this dance soo much :D
one of the best moments of my life (:

Mon, 13 Jul 2009 15:48:18 GMT

life in spore's been good so far! :D
since i came back,
i've been baking!! loveeee baking!!
i've baked strawberry rhubarb pie, lemon blueberry bread and brownie cheesecake! :D
it all turned out very well! im so satisfied with it! hahaha jus tt i need to improve on my presentation.

been spending time with my loved ones (:
<3

got back my sem 1 results.
i didnt do well but praise the Lord,
at least i passed (:
i will work harder next sem!

Fri, 26 Jun 2009 12:32:28 GMT

i cant believe i bought a mask for 10 freaking bucks. -.-
i better make sure i wear it diligently tmr.
daddy told me to be socially responsible and strongly suggested me to buy it despite the absurb cost.
:( waste of money..........
pray for me, i WILL be okay! :D

here i come, my home!

Thu, 25 Jun 2009 09:05:40 GMT

i have absolutely no mood to touch french alr.
i really cant wait to sit for my french paper tmr.
i wish it was a morning paper.
grrrrrrr.....
ive alr watched 2 seasons of australia's next top model.
pls shoot me, i shldnt be doing this knowing tt i shldnt get myself distracted during this extended exam period.
ahhhh time, pls pass quicklyyy!!!!
i cant wait to go homeeeeee

Wed, 24 Jun 2009 02:17:56 GMT

my mom jus told me that i HAVE to be quarantined at home when im back.
she said that a man died from H1N1 in western victoria.
eh im afraid to get on the plane on sat!

Tue, 23 Jun 2009 08:50:47 GMT

i cant wait for fri. i jus want to get my french paper over and done with.
this wait is killing me slowlyyyyyy...

on a brighter note,
YAY my mom agreed tt i cld go overseas with anyone this hols!!
i want to go on a holiday somewhere relaxing n fun!! it'd be awesome if there's shopping too!!!
ahhh i cant wait!!
any suggestions anyone?!

Sat, 20 Jun 2009 23:35:04 GMT

na brought this freshly homemade soybean milk for me all the way from home to CS last night! awwww super sweet!!! really happy na! thank you! :D now i have soymilk to drink to last me till fri! :D xoxo

shopping with px and na at chapel on fri! :D we took black n white pics from the photobooth! hahaha retarded faces! hhaha!
<3 you guys!!

Sat, 13 Jun 2009 12:41:25 GMT

i am seriously sleepy.
feel like sleeping now now now now now...........

hibernation

Tue, 09 Jun 2009 12:30:03 GMT

today's crazily cold + it was raining!
it has never been THAT cold b4 as far as i can rmb!
i swear my butt's getting bigger from the hours and hours of sitting next to my heater, trying as much as possible not to get out of my seat bcos if i do, the coldness wld engulf me! freezingggggg...
i wonder how i survived the last winter without heaters. it must be my very own body insulator=fats. imagine the massively thick layers... OMGGGGGG...

well, whoever invented heaters, i must say he is a genius! :D

Mon, 08 Jun 2009 12:49:54 GMT

i know this is the wrong time to say this,
but........

i am addicted to 'how i met your mother'

its freaking awesome hahahaha

Mon, 08 Jun 2009 10:52:20 GMT

I AM CRAVING FOR BLUEBERRY MUFFINS NOWWWWWWWW

Sun, 07 Jun 2009 05:17:33 GMT

the look you give....

hate those ambigious eyes.
u'll never know what's going on in the mind of theirs.

Thu, 04 Jun 2009 09:38:49 GMT

soooo siannnnnn......

EGG-CITED!!!

Mon, 23 Mar 2009 12:43:34 GMT

I AM GONNA WATCH BILLY ELLIOT MUSICAL TMR!!
YAY I AM EXTREMELY EXCITED!
MY VERY FIRST MUSCIAL HERE IN MELBOURNE!
I HOPE IT'D BE A FULFILLING ONE (:

Sun, 23 Nov 2008 08:50:35 GMT

1) australian idol is on now!! SO EXCITING!!

2) HAHAHA i think the show 'thank god u're here' is freaking funny! LOL
i kept laughing like some retarded person!

3) 3 more dayysssssss!! i cant waitttttttttttt!!!!!!!!!!!! :D

I AM THRILLED!

Wed, 19 Nov 2008 02:40:05 GMT

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY JANE!!! :D
i hope u'll have a blast with nick! hahaha
missyou girl! ;)
cant wait to meet up in dec!